Funny how things turn out sometimes...
Back Story for those of you new to the scene: I come from an Anglican Liturgical family (my father, sister, brother-in-law, his father, my stand-in Godfather, the father of my Goddaughter... are all Anglican Priests). I love Anglican Parish life, singing in the choir and otherwise feel very at home in the Anglican Church, but I have always (as long as I can remember) felt somewhat at odds with the Christian Religion. My Spiritual beliefs fit well with the basics of Eclectic Wicca, but I have yet to find a group of Pagans with whom I feel at home. For over a decade I have been living as an "Angwiccan" or "Wiccapalian", sometimes being a parish social-light: baking communion bread, knitting prayer shawls, organizing giving tree projects etc... and sometimes practicing strictly Wicca at home.
Now that I'm a mother, the issue of how to raise my son Spiritually has arisen, and it's an issue I feel very conflicted over. I love the Church for it's Parish Community, but not it's religion - and isn't it a bit hypocritical to practice a religion I don't believe in? Under that thought, with the exception of this past Christmas eve (as my mother was here), I haven't gone to church since we moved to Arizona two Easter's ago; that said, I haven't been a particularly good Wiccan either.
Recently I have been asking myself, "just what is that I have issues with regarding Christianity?", and although I could list a few things, the heart of the matter is I don't exactly know what my issues are (and isn't that stupid, feeling conflicted when I can't define the conflicts). Despite being from such a strong Anglican Liturgical family my Christian Theology is hazy at best; and if I am to determine if my practicing Anglicanism because I feel at home in an Anglican Parish is hypocritical (which is to say directly conflicts with my actual beliefs) then I'm going to need to deepen my understanding of Anglicanism/Christianity. Where to start? Well the Bible, obviously.
That said,I know the Bible isn't necessarily meant to be read cover to cover... so with the same question "where do I start" in mind I decide I should start going to St.Mary's, the parish I visited over Christmas and felt quite at home at. While looking on their website, what should I find but a reference to the 2012 Bible Reading Challenge, including a Lent to Lent daily readings list. I'm a little late to the game (as Ash Wednesday was February 22nd) however not so late that I'll have any issue catching up (I'll just read two days worth each day for a bit).
So - I accept the Lent to Lent Bible Reading Challenge; anything of particular interest that I find during my study I'll note here (as much to help with my own contemplation as with anyone else interests), and come Sunday will attempt to get to know the people at St. Mary's a little better.
Study Note: I am using the "Harper Collins Study Bible" NRSV, which per my father is thee Study Bible.